Choose again

Choose again

What would life look like if we truly chose to bring full awareness to our thoughts, feelings, actions and beliefs in each moment? How many unconscious patterns would we bring to light? How many opportunities would we have to choose again?

A few days ago I made a conscious decision that I’d been making less consciously for a while, and I voiced it, out loud. I decided that I would rather stare my limiting beliefs in the face, and choose differently, than continue to live parts of my life restricted and from a fearful mentality centred around lack and limitation. I decided I was tired of fear showing up every time I was in this particular situation.

Whilst this will require a LOT of showing up on my part, it will also lead to massive expansion as I look for the moments when my actions are informed by my visualising lack, instead of unlimited abundance, limitation instead of expansion, and fear and conditions instead of unconditional love.

There is nothing we can’t have, do, or be in this world, it is simply a case of choosing to see with love and abundance, and letting go of our judgements, opinions and limiting beliefs

Contrast

Contrast

Maybe it was possible to find peace without contrast. Maybe you found peace IN the contrast?

Maybe, as she experienced the edges of her comfort zone, it was possible to discover her peace, even in the midst of the discomfort, in the situations and experiences that scared her, brought out her desire to defend herself, or brought on a weariness that made her want to run away to the comfort of a life less interesting, and all together less inspiring.

Maybe that was the goal: not to be happy with everything, but to be able to find her centre, her own source of peace and comfort, even when faced with the random human challenges of day to day life?

My journey in Bali has only just begun, and yet it’s already pushed so many of my buttons; physically, emotionally and mentally. I am grateful for more opportunities to clear the blocks to love, despite how it feels at the time.

I have gone to sleep the last couple of nights with scary flashbacks every time I close my eyes, and feeling the most unsettled I’ve felt in a long time. So is the journey. So is the practice. I haven’t done yoga since I got here and my body felt it when I finally made one of the longest paddle outs ever this morning on my new board with half the volume I’m used to. And. I did it.
I spend my time chanting sanskrit mantras in my head when I’m riding my scooter because it terrifies me, and remind myself that all is well, and everything is as it should be, for my highest good.

I catch the stories I tell myself and the judgements I make about any and every situation, relax my shoulders, and breathe.

I am so far from having it ‘figured out’, and yet, I still find myself with faith, trusting that I’m in the right place, being of the most service to my clients, and excited to start my ICF Coach training tonight thanks to the power of the internet, even in the remote corners of Bali. Whatever we learn individually, benefits the collective

Past vs Future

Past vs Future

Your past made you who you are today, but it won’t make you who you are tomorrow.
Who you become tomorrow is defined by the choices you make today. Right now.

If you want a different future, do something different now.

A little exercise for you:
Take a moment. Close your eyes.
Envisage all you want your life to be, how you want to feel, where you’ll live, who’ll be with you, what you’ll be doing…everything.
See it. Feel it. Hear it. Smell it.
Now feel into the person you need to be in order to make that a reality.
How does this person hold themselves, feel about themselves, treat themselves? How do they treat others?
Take a few moments to embody this person – become them for as long as you can.
Take this version of you into the present moment.

Change starts now

Looking inside

Looking inside

If you didn’t have anyone to go to, nowhere to run…if you only had yourself to look to for the answers to your problems, where would you start?

We so often run away from ourselves, from our pain and from our suffering, and instead project our fears and anger on to those around us, then tell them they are the ones who need to change, or get help, in order to make us feel better.

Yet, any journey – any true healing you undertake – whether it be through talking therapy or anything else, asks you to look within for your answers, it asks you to heal YOUR wounds, so the external world can reflect a more peaceful internal world.

So, if you couldn’t get anyone else to ‘fix’ your problem, and your only option was to look inside yourself, to really be with, experience and accept the parts of yourself you have hidden from, run away from and rejected for so long, what would that look like?

That – the helping you take responsibility for yourself – is where therapists and healers like myself can help, support, guide and hold you. This combination of ownership, vulnerability, honesty and courage between you and whomever you ask to support you, is what creates a powerful alchemical container for change.
If your heart is longing for the freedom, authenticity and love that comes from no longer hiding from yourself (nor anyone else), have a look at my current programmes and see if we’re a match (links in bio) <3 .
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📸 @loveluella photography

Defining yourself

Defining yourself

Ever get that pull to get another qualification, get that job, buy that house or some other material thing you can use to identify yourself and your worth in the world: to make sense of who you are, what you do and why you’re here?

I’ve gone through major phases in the past where I’ve wanted to change my job, change my website, do another training, get another label to assign to myself, so as to explain and define myself to others, as well as myself. Just being ‘me’ didn’t seem enough.

Now I see that pattern when it pops up. I know what game my ego is playing. It’s trying to keep me separate from everyone by assigning me a unique role and label. It wants me to compare and judge everyone, including me, and create conflict where there is none.
What you do does not take away from what I do. What you achieve does not lessen my accomplishments. In contrast, your success is my success. Any way we can allow more expressions of love in the world, is a win win.

It’s true – I am a unique manifestation of energy. I have unique gifts and have a purpose.

AND, that purpose will always be to embody love, and share love. How I do that is up to me, and I will use my gifts in a unique way to pursue that purpose, but the purpose remains unchanged.

We don’t need any special title, label or thing to make us worthy. We need to recognise that we are part of the oneness of all creation, and there isn’t anything BUT that. Can we find peace in knowing that we are part of something, with a unique path, which only we can tread, and which we are already treading, whether we accept / know it or not? Can we find joy in the successes of others, as we also benefit from them?
We can. Together. I’ve got you.
Link in bio to book a consult.
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📸: @loveluella photography

Brave, not perfect

Brave, not perfect

It’s about being brave, not about being perfect.

There will be so many times where we reach, and fall short of where our egos, our family, our friends or our society think we should be.

This is not a failure.
Being brave, having the courage to be vulnerable, to show heart instead of bravado, this is where the true success is to be found.
In the space where vulnerability meets expectation, and softens the walls that we hold around ourselves to keep us protected and safe; this, THIS is what’s important.

Nothing will feel as good as honouring yourself on your journey and doing what makes you come alive. Do this, and nothing more. Be brave.
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📸: @loveluella photography