Grey

Grey

There is grey here. There are so many unknowns and my brain just wants to be pointed in a direction with a clear goal and told to go. Run with it. Go ‘do’. And yet, here we are, in the grey. Where there is no alignment in one particular direction, and where creating boundaries and fences and rules for myself won’t help my fundamental uncomfortableness with this situation.

Here, is an invitation to sit. To not do. To not constrict, and restrict, but to expand, to create opportunity, to allow more in, rather than block more out.

Here is where we meet the grey.
Here is where we make our choice – to run, or to stay.

To choose the unknown with an open heart, and ask it what is has to teach us, or to run blindly away and hope we already know best.

I am choosing to stay. I am choosing to sit with the grey and see what happens. I want to know what it has to teach me. Do you?

I am fully supported

I am fully supported

I am fully supported.

I lived in fear for most of my life.
I had developed such a sense of lack in my life that even though I always had clean clothes and food to eat, I was acutely aware that it could all be taken away in an instant. I ‘knew’ money didn’t grow on trees and you had to work hard for everything you got. I ‘knew’ that even if I did that, there were no guarantees so I had to squirrel and save and never enjoy myself too much in case that somehow made me greedy and my happiness or support or money would be taken away.

I learned this as a fact. It was a belief that I felt kept me safe for years. Until I realised that it didn’t.
It gave me the impression of safety, whilst keeping me trapped in a prison of my own making. It stopped me achieving my potential, being vulnerable and connecting with others fully, because I was scared the world was out to get me, and I had to watch my back.

Changing those beliefs took a long time. It took many books, many courses, many teachers. I still drop into lack thoughts every now and again. The last couple of weeks tested me. And yet, I PROMISE YOU, it is worth it.

The thing is, if something doesn’t feel good, if it doesn’t nourish your soul and give you a sense of peace and purpose, you get to change how you think and feel about it. You have that power.
If something doesn’t feel good, there’s a belief or judgement or opinion – a meaning you’re making of it – that is coming from a place of fear, lack or attack. You can release that and ask to see with love and abundance instead.

Your choice. I can only tell you that when I notice that feeling of fear, of worry, and I consciously shift my thinking to one of being fully supported, and not having to know HOW I will be supported, I am always supported. Money always comes. Opportunities always come. Friends always come. Everything always works out.

If you’d like a coach and accountability partner to help you make love and abundance your regular state of being, send me a DM and let’s talk x

Saying the wrong thing

Saying the wrong thing

Don’t be afraid to say the wrong thing.

Sometimes we can let fear dictate our voices. We close down our thinking and our feeling because, ultimately, we don’t trust ourselves with the truth of our whole being, of the shadow parts and the parts we feel shame or guilt around. We fear how others may receive us, meaning we fear that part in ourselves.

We are rejecting ourselves in a time when everything we knew has shifted, and the only constant is the unknown.
There is no wrong or right here. There is only truth. We can choose to be discerning with how we share it, how we express it, but it is here regardless. We cannot change it, nor suppress it, just make our home within it. We can become comfortable with the truth of who we are, all of us.

I am inviting you to use this opportunity to accept the parts of yourself you have spent so long trying to run away from or avoid: the parts you thought were no good or broken, and the parts you thought no-one could love. EVERY part of you is lovable. You are NOT broken. You are whole and have unlimited potential. I believe in you.

Ask yourself what needs to move in order for you to love yourself, and if you need support, please reach out and ask – I’m offering on-going support via instant message, video and audio notes and am finding it such an incredible way to facilitate growth and support healing with my clients

Distance

Distance

Can physical distance bring you closer? Yes.
To yourself? Yes.

To others? Yes.

To the Truth? Yes.

There is no distance between the Truth and Love

I don’t know the answers

I don’t know the answers

I wish I had more to offer you at this time. I wish I had the answers or the tools or the shortcuts to help us navigate the things we’re all facing individually, and collectively.
The truth is, I don’t. I have tools, and have made meditations available for free on my website (dm me if you want the link), and as A Course in Miracles so poignantly points out throughout, I do not know what anything is for.
I can choose to judge everything that is happening, and assign it good or bad or scary, and I can (and have) over consume information – like if I just keep reading I’ll find the answer.

Or I can use this time to surrender and sink deeply into my own understanding of what love is, honour you, and how you may be feeling and processing, respect each person’s choices and feelings, and use this time and space of change to let go of everything I thought I could control, and learn what we are truly capable of, when we turn our focus on what we can do to help each other and our world.

I choose not to fight. I choose to surrender. I choose to follow the guidelines set by our governments, with loving intention for global healing, without any attachment or stress about what that might look like or how it might come about. This is how I can be of service, in some very small way. Sending you love