Well hi there!
So it’s been a really hectic couple of months. Firstly, my website got taken down because it got hacked by malware, and due to my VERY limited tech skills, it took me ages to get it up and running again, with thanks to Sambo.
So the new look is simple, clean and, more importantly, I got it up and running in a few hours – I hope you like it. It may well change going forward but for now I think the content is more important than the look. If you’re reading this on email, have a look here.
OK so back to the title of this email, here’s an overview of my life in the past couple of months:
Very sadly, my boyfriend and I parted ways after three and a half years together, he was and is a massive part of my life and helped me in so many ways I couldn’t possibly list them all here. We remain friends and I hope he finds all the happiness he could ever wish for but for now, I’m on a solo journey which needs to be all about me (read: I needed to be selfish for a while).
I started a big, shiny new job. Yes, whilst there’s a part of me who dreams of doing this stuff full time, I also love the security of a steady pay cheque and the professional environment. So now I work in the West End of London, looking after a much bigger team and getting to use my many geeky OCD and logical reasoning skills whilst getting to work with great people.
So, BF moved out Christmas week, started new job on 2nd January. Big SCARY changes.
Whilst some people might say that might be a lot to take on board at once, for me it was just the right thing. I realised towards the end of last year that I was ready for my next move. I needed to move out of the shelter of those who protected me and sink or swim.
My biggest problem was that I had amazing people who told me I was great, that I would never fail.
I know right – what a terrible affliction!?
The thing is, it doesn’t matter how supportive people are and how great they think you are, if you have doubts about yourself. When you’re a child this positive reinforcement can have a massive impact on your self esteem but if you grow up with doubts, people being supportive doesn’t always cut it. You need to prove it to yourself, without help.
So that’s what I’m up to now. Working hard, making friends with my work colleagues (who are all women – another thing which worried me but they’re actually the nicest bunch of ladies I’ve ever met!) and proving to myself I can do anything I set my mind to.
Want to know the weird thing? Since I relaunched the website, I’ve been inundated with enquiries – maybe my added confidence and general ‘take the bull by the horns’ mentality is affecting more than I thought!
Wherever you are in your life right now, don’t be afraid to move forward. You don’t have to make drastic changes, learn to trust your instincts and look for opportunities when they present themselves.
Growth is organic – you get out what you put in.
Have an amazing week!
Hi Emma,
Was wondering why you went a little quiet. I missed your weekly musings 🙂
Seems like your life has undergone some major changes in the last few month, but your positive and focused attitude jumps from the page. You seems to be living life on your terms and that can only be a great thing.
I am glad to learn the sight is up and running and look forward to having you back in the WWW :))
Best Regards,
Antonina
Hey Antonina,
Thank you so much for taking the time to write!
Yes – a hectic time but exciting and new and challenging – I’m hoping to get back in to the writing properly now. Unfortunately when the site went down I lost my last few posts (I’ve learned my lesson with backing up everything now!) but new year, new start as they say!
Stay well x