The shape of your goodness is not something which can be defined by your choice of actions in only one moment, but by your innate goodness: that which is inside you regardless of the ego-ful fear you layer on top of it. Strip all that away and what are you left with? Someone who's heart yearns to be held, safely, and quietly, by another human soul who sees them and accepts them completely for who they are. Choose to show this side of yourself; the vulnerable part of yourself which is far from perfect and holds all the memories of the things you did or said that you're ashamed of, and all the parts of yourself you don't like. Show them THAT part, and you will be amazed at how often you are met there