I had a moment of ‘not good enough’ today. That moment when I am reminded that my social media game is definitely towards the ‘bad’ end of the scale, that I still (at the ripe age of 37) have not figured out how to take a half decent selfie and that following an incredible bodywork treatment at the weekend I keep randomly bursting out crying with a level of grief and sadness I can’t pinpoint, but haven’t felt for a while.
I had a moment of telling myself I ‘should’ be better than this. I should have settled already back in Portugal (I’m here for another couple of months…sadly, the sunshine hasn’t really picked up the memo yet). I shouldn’t have to deal with grief and sadness and crying episodes because I’m a therapist (!!! lol).
Thankfully I caught all of these in a split second and had to laugh at myself. I forgot I was human for a second. I forgot that having human experiences involves pain and growth and grief. It involves habits and patterns and defence mechanisms. It’s uncomfortable and uncertain. And in that is the blessing – the opportunity to choose again, to choose kindness, to choose love, to reach out with your heart open, with no expectations, and trust that you will be caught (even if by yourself).
I am good enough, and, in case you were questioning it, so are you <3
You are enough
