Off the back of my post last week, when I explained how I’m going to make more time for my ‘hippy’ side, and reduce my corporate workload to accommodate it, I’ve had one hell of a week.
For anyone outside of the UK, we had MASSIVE storms on Monday, when meant most of London couldn’t get to work on Monday morning. Since my job is to ensure 500 people are on site at the right time at 200 locations across London, my Monday sucked ass. Our phones were ringing so much with people telling us they were stranded that we couldn’t even get a free line to dial out until 7:20am (yes – I start work early. Lucky I’m a morning person with a nespresso machine at home).
My week continued with equally joyful days culminating in a night out which I would really rather forget.
Are you cheered up yet? So glad you decided to read this post today aren’t you? Don’t worry. It gets better.
At the end of the week, I was seriously reconsidering my decision to stay and not move to the Welsh countryside and back to my roots (as an aside, I’d love to hear your thoughts on this – give up material stuff, friends and a social life for your dream, a caravan, no money and isolation?). Do you ever feel you’re taking three steps forward, two steps back; never quite moving forward at the pace you want?
It seems sometimes like however hard you try, where you’re going isn’t arriving fast enough.
Sometimes, I feel like I’ve been on this path so long, I start to question if I’m even on the right one. Maybe I’m supposed to be doing something else. Maybe the cubicle cage is for me. Maybe I’m supposed to yoga outside of work and my work is supposed to be ‘normal’ just like everyone else’s.
There’s only one small problem with that. It all feels wrong. My work teaches us how to listen to our intuition; to learn to trust our hearts and that we’re on the right path. No matter how much I try to fight it, I know I should be helping people. Maybe I don’t know the exact way or capacity I’m supposed to do that yet, but I know I need to help people. When I talk about my work, you hear an excitement in my voice.
So I’m constantly learning that life put hurdles in our way to teach us lessons. Our paths may divert us, but ultimately, we know instinctively what the next move is, and trusting that feeling will take us one more step on the way to where we are supposed to be.
When self-doubt creeps in for you, how do you know you’re doing the right thing? Let me know in the comments below.