The accomplishment of the goal does not exist in the future.
It exists right now, in the small actions you take in alignment with the person you want to be.
I have made a lot of mistakes. A LOT. I’ve done things I spent a long time being ashamed of (until I learned to forgive myself). Yet I still did them. At the time, I knew on some level it didn’t feel right but I did it anyway. It wasn’t until an incident a couple of years ago where I really recognised my power and choice in this.
If you are really clear on what feels right and wrong for you, you can make a clear choice to act in accordance with that – to be in integrity with yourself. If a situation asks for you to act out of integrity, it is not the situation for you. Point blank. Period. Find another way.